Remember how you felt insecure as a child, whenever you needed to do something you never did before?
The first time you were sent to a shop to get something, for someone. Pressing the money in your hand. Rehearsing what you need to ask for in the shop. And feeling afraid that you somehow would not be able to accomplish this big task that someone gave you. Or more important, be disappointing to the one that entrusted you this very important task. You just need to proof to them that you can do it, that you were worth to be entrusted with this task.
But that was when you where a little child. And there were so many things you never did before. But once you did them the first time, the next time was just a piece of cake... oh, yeah. Those little tasks even bored you and if you could avoid doing them, you did.
Little tasks turned into bigger tasks and feeling insecure about how you were going to live your life. Making your dreams come true is one thing, but being able to support yourself and be independent.
As your life evolves, you found a good job, found a nice place to live in. Maybe even build a family, or otherwise build your live and all the things in it you care about. And you were successful at proving that you were worth to be entrusted with tasks. Maybe you even got tired proving yourself.
But... Did it bring secureness? Aren't you scared anymore?
It might seem so. Or sort of. I know i felt sort of secure and sort of not scared anymore. I told myself not to be scared. It makes no sense to be afraid of losing things, not being able to accomplish tasks or to change!
Wow, CHANGE. Here's the big word. All of a sudden, your life changes a lot.
At some point we are all going to face that time that you need to change some significant things in your life.
And suddenly you find your self being that little child again. Confronted with something you never did before, insecure about the outcome and afraid to be disappointing.
Truth is, it is all in the game that's called life!
Feeling scared is normal, even when you're older. There are still enough things you need to do for the first time in your life. And more important: You won't get bored by the things you already did so many times and rather would like to avoid!
Note to myself:
I need to thank all involved in getting me to the point that I realized this!
